Searching for Joy

State of Mind
State of Spirit
State of Family
State of Marriage
State of the World

The past two weeks have been a tad strange for me. You see, for years I’ve been learning how to manage depression. Whether it’s different meds, more therapy, or mindful meditation, it’s been a learning process.

The problem is, I don’t know what to do when I’m just plain, old-fashioned, sad. And the tears have been falling frequently.

A local woman’s suicide followed by Robin William’s death in the same vain.
Racism alive in our country.
Beheadings of Americans across the world.
Internet arguments over everything.
Family stress getting the best of us.
The stupid, tragic death of my parent’s dog.

I want to run away from it all. When I can’t, I cry.

However, In the midst of the sadness in weeks past, I did find laughter. You know I played a small part in a musical this summer. I came away from that experience meeting some of the best people on this planet. When I was with them, happiness filled my inner being. Our time together was short, but now I believe I’ve had a glimpse of the joy I’ve been missing.

And I want more of it.

I am not so naive to believe a time of hiding will take me away from the horrors of the world. I will be in continued prayer for Ferguson, MO and the victims of ISIS. I just won’t be bombarded with opinions every time I log on Twitter. Instead, I’ll spend more quality time with friends and family to refill and refuel my heart with love.

Blessings to you as summer comes to an end. I pray for you to find joy where you least expect it. I’ll also continue to pray for world peace. It’s a lofty goal, but I can hope.